Hesston College - Lark Yearbook (Hesston, KS)

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But it isn't always fun and being happy. Sometimes it's a very lonely world. l sit here alone - there are others here but my thoughts are mine alone. No one knows my fears, my problems, my aspirations, - no one but me. llong for home - I sit for to go to sleep this troubled night in my own bed in my room in my house with my parents' room near and fond mem ories of family keeping watch over me - longing for the familarity ofa life so secure and sure. But such is not to be found. alone here - crying in the night, afraid oftomorrowg my mind is spinning.

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It's funny - we've been here almost two years and soon we'll be leaving - for good. All ofa sudden I realize, it's Spring - it's almost over - and so many people that I never really gave a chance. It hurts - it makes me want to cry. I want to grab time andjust make it stand still and give me a few more weeks, days, minutes to do all that I should do but haven't. So many precious people running around who mean so very much. Ijust want to reach out and throw my arms around them and tell them I love them. But I can't - they may not feel what I feel today. They may take it all wrong. So I guess I'lljust pen my feelings inside, keeping check so that they don't escape and keep on livingjust like anybody else.

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Yet somehow I could sense a growing kind of thing evolving out ofloneliness and pain and hurt. Painfully beautiful- Life is so ugly and so beautiful Memories fading in and out feelings all compounded inside me. I feel so free, so very much alive, so full ofhope - no hard set goals, just a lot ofhope. fire and rain - but I always thought that l'd see you againf' the road is long - I know not where it will lead me but I want to follow it. It's hard to grow up - but it's beautiful it's so ugly and so beautiful so painfully beautiful and so real - I'm me and sometimes I wouldn't trade being me for anything or anybody in the whole world,